Since Nate got out of jail. I had a panic attack waiting for him to come get his stuff but haven't had any since then. My mom was able to serve him his divorce papers the day he got out so that means that we can finalize any time after the 2nd of August. That will be nice. I want to finish this so I can really move on with my life. When Nate was here getting his stuff he left me all the letters and stuff that I sent him. So Wed. afternoon Scott and I went to Timbertown and burned it all in one of the grills. It was theraputic...And once the divorce is final I will go back and burn all the letters he sent me.
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Friday, July 10, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Really Quick...
I am gonna post LOL. I took a vicodin for the pain in my body so I am ready to pass out. Probably not a good idea, cuz I do have plans later, but if I continue to feel so groggy I will lay down.
I went and saw Nate yesterday, I don't know if I said it before or not but it was suppose to be my last visit. I did end up scheduling another visit but I am going to call and cancel it. I can't keep going to the jail anymore. I need to be free from him, from his issues with me, his yelling, and his crap. It just CAN NOT continue.
When I left the jail I was in, for lack of better words, a funk. One that would not lift no matter what I did. I even talked to Scott on the phone for a half hour...It seemed to help but not much. When I called there he was still sleeping, at 5:35 in the afternoon, and they woke him up. I felt bad, but at the same time I thought for sure it would help. And it did, for a little while. And then suddenly it crept back up on me.
Stephanie and I took Hayley to the park. I wish I could remember more, but I just can't. I was that out of it.I do know that we were having fun, if I'm not mistaken. I have tons of pics from my cell phone... Finally, Steph stole my cell phone and called Scott. We were about 2 mins from his house. I guess she told him his girlfriend was acting weird and it was freaking her out. And could she bring me there. He said yes. I remember getting in the car, and her driving me there. And then I remember him coming out and talking to me. I remember his arm around me, telling me everything would be okay. And then I remember getting out of the car and just wrapping my arms around him. We just stood there, me in his arms. And finally I felt that oddness lifting. I apologized for him missing some of the Red Wings game, and he said basically
that I was more important than the game.
By the time we left there I was feeling much better. I didn't feel so out of it anymore. And for that I thank Stephanie, for contacting him and driving me there. And I thank my wonderful boyfriend for caring enough to help me feel better. It was odd and I know there is stuff that I will never remember. But I also know I am safe with Scott and he will be there to make me feel safe.
This is why I can not go back to the jail. I can not allow my self to get that out of it again. I NEED to stay away from Nate.
Anyways, I am sure this makes NO sense whats so ever but maybe later after I have slept I can fix it...I donno. But for now I will close with a couple pictures....I absolutely adore these pictures..And they turned out fairly good given they were taken with my 2.0 mega pixel camera phone....
There is other stuff I want to talk about but not now...Maybe later...
~~Sara~~
I went and saw Nate yesterday, I don't know if I said it before or not but it was suppose to be my last visit. I did end up scheduling another visit but I am going to call and cancel it. I can't keep going to the jail anymore. I need to be free from him, from his issues with me, his yelling, and his crap. It just CAN NOT continue.
When I left the jail I was in, for lack of better words, a funk. One that would not lift no matter what I did. I even talked to Scott on the phone for a half hour...It seemed to help but not much. When I called there he was still sleeping, at 5:35 in the afternoon, and they woke him up. I felt bad, but at the same time I thought for sure it would help. And it did, for a little while. And then suddenly it crept back up on me.
Stephanie and I took Hayley to the park. I wish I could remember more, but I just can't. I was that out of it.I do know that we were having fun, if I'm not mistaken. I have tons of pics from my cell phone... Finally, Steph stole my cell phone and called Scott. We were about 2 mins from his house. I guess she told him his girlfriend was acting weird and it was freaking her out. And could she bring me there. He said yes. I remember getting in the car, and her driving me there. And then I remember him coming out and talking to me. I remember his arm around me, telling me everything would be okay. And then I remember getting out of the car and just wrapping my arms around him. We just stood there, me in his arms. And finally I felt that oddness lifting. I apologized for him missing some of the Red Wings game, and he said basically
that I was more important than the game.By the time we left there I was feeling much better. I didn't feel so out of it anymore. And for that I thank Stephanie, for contacting him and driving me there. And I thank my wonderful boyfriend for caring enough to help me feel better. It was odd and I know there is stuff that I will never remember. But I also know I am safe with Scott and he will be there to make me feel safe.
This is why I can not go back to the jail. I can not allow my self to get that out of it again. I NEED to stay away from Nate.
Anyways, I am sure this makes NO sense whats so ever but maybe later after I have slept I can fix it...I donno. But for now I will close with a couple pictures....I absolutely adore these pictures..And they turned out fairly good given they were taken with my 2.0 mega pixel camera phone....
There is other stuff I want to talk about but not now...Maybe later...
~~Sara~~
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