Doing okay...

On Wednesday afternoon I had one last hcg check before they took me back for my d&c. I needed that done for my own peace of mind. As it turns out we were making the right choice as my hcg level had already began to drop in 2 short days. In fact it dropped over 200 points.
So we went ahead and did the procedure and the dr said he didnt remove much. so there is still a slight concern of an ectopic pregnancy so I have to go Friday morning for more blood work to make sure my level is still dropping and i will see the dr in the afternoon.
Physically as of now I am feeling okay. I have taken some tylenol for some mild cramping and tmi but as of almost 3 am I am not really bleeding anymore.
I have lots of questions for the dr and hope i can get some answers soon.
I am off to bed now but wanted to post a quick update.
Oh and side note today (4/11) would have been my dads 70th birthday. I still miss him like crazy but take comfort in the knowledge (in my eyes) he was there to greet our baby.
I promiseto post again soon...
Sara

Beyond heartbroken

We found out today this baby isnt going to make it. They are scheduling a d&c for later this week. Please pray....

Just hanging on...

Barely hanging on but none the less we are hanging on.  We have been having regular HCG checks but they are not going as well as they were. I had one done Thursday, which was 3 days since my last one, and it was only 859. up from 526.7. So it did not double. It did go up at least 60% so I was trying to stay positive. Then today I went and had labs drawn again ( boy am I getting all black and blue!!) and it had only risen to 1074. BUT that was only 40 hrs after the last one so I don't know if that other 8 hours makes a big difference. I have to go either Monday or Tuesday and have them drawn again. I am terrified that something is wrong but I just keep telling my self, it is rising, I still feel pregnant(horrible morning (all day) sickness) and I'm not bleeding. This baby is a fighter I have to have faith that everything will be okay.
Oh and on another note I quit smoking 3 days ago. Amazingly its gone well, but I chalk that up to the fact that the smell of cigarettes makes me practically gag....
So please pray for this little baby. If we lose it I'm not sure I can go thru this again!
Sara

Surprise!

That is exactly how we felt. I've had three hcg checks and they were 84 218.4 and today was 526.7...we are still in shock but at this point we r confident that this will end with a baby! Thank you to anyone who has been praying for us!

Hello!

Please if u can, please pray for my sanity and my family as we travel some bumpy roads....
Thanks!

Discouraging...

Its day 22 today. Still no positive test. It's nerve-racking..Tomorrow I go for blood work. Day 23 bloodwork apparently LOL. She wanted day 22 but that's today and the lab is closed. I really don't know what she is checking in my blood work but I'm sure they will let me know if they find something we need to discuss.
What if I'm really not ovulating. I know that the only true way to tell if I am ovulating is to temp. But temping is hard for me because I don't get up at the same time everyday..I donno.
The other day Hayley announced that she would like a baby brother or sister. It was so sweet but yet so sad. I know she wants a sibling...She has never been quiet about it. Shes already 10...and yet she still wants that little sibling to play with. Its adorable. Sad too, because we've been trying for so long to have a baby.
I have to go for more labwork on day 3 of my next cycle. I don't know what she is checking then either. I guess I should have paid more attention at my appointment. Opps.
I've hit a wall. I'll be back in a little bit!

Day 18..

Still negative but thats the darkest one yet..maybe soon...